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is it a secret or a signal

from is it a secret or a signal? by cyntrix & the pilot

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Will you take a walk with me?
I promise not to talk about
All the awful things
That make their way from mind to mouth
Just sometimes there isn't anything else
But flashing images of anyone I've ever loved
And exactly how their bodies are
being broken down

Is it a secret or a signal
something else or is it me
I just need a clearer sense of
What anything is supposed to mean
Especially the darker things
The ones that steal my breath in ways
I'd never imagined

And I still yearn for objectivity
I'm tired of holding it up to the light
Always something new to remind me
not all things can be made right

When I ask if I'm a good person
I need you to be precise
Because I fall into these delusions
Am I'm not sure if I can trust my own mind

If you could take a walk with me
Point out all the things you see
That maybe i don't have the eyes to greet
I want to believe something kinder is
beckoning me
Even if it finds me later, when I am silently losing leaves
As a well-intentioned backyard tree

Is it a secret or a signal
something else or is it me
I just need a clearer sense of
What anything is supposed to mean
Especially the darker things
The ones that steal my breath in ways
I'd never imagined

I still yearn for objectivity
I'm tired of holding it up to the light
Always something new to remind me
Not all things can be made right

When I ask if I'm a good person
I need you to be precise
Because I'd just like to exist quietly
Does the loop in my mind overwrite…

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from is it a secret or a signal?, released November 11, 2023
lyrics & vocals - nikole thomas
music & production - richard stottman

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